Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Update blog!

It's been a few days, and it's time for an update!

Red hair update: 5 days have passed since I dyed my hair red. The 'new' factor has worn off and it's time to be critical. I still like it, but I've encountered a few problems. I can see my roots already, mostly around my forehead. My friend who dyed my hair was careful not to dye my skin, but in doing so has left some fairly noticeable roots. The other issue is that I own a fair amount of red, pink and orange clothes which don't go with my new 'do, including my coat. It is fun and looks great if I'm wearing black, and I've done my makeup, but doesn't work so well every day. On the plus side, it makes my green eyes really stand out.

TYSIC update: I looked at my resume today for the first time since September. Within a few moments of reading it and trying to update it I've gotten anxious and worried again. But in the spirit of facing my fears I booked an appointment with a career counselor to go over my resume together on Friday. By making an appointment I have made it impossible for me to back out. I'll probably make a few more appointments there in the near future.

Comedy update: If you're following me on twitter you'll know that over the past few days the idea of flying to London in mid-May for comedy goodness has crossed my mind. A financially stupid idea, yes, but I was tempted by the idea of seeing Git, Fat Tuesday and Derren Brown!!! (not to mention a bunch of friends). I looked at flights but was waiting to book until I found out my work schedule.
However, this morning I found out that Craig Ferguson and Eddie Izzard are both performing in Toronto in the near future (Craig on the 23rd of April and Eddie on April 30th-May 2nd). This would make more financial sense, and even two round trips to Toronto on the train and more expensive tickets would be more financially sensible and less time-consuming than a week in London. I've never seen Craig or Eddie live before, so this'll be great!
The idea of going to London is still really really tempting (I really want to see my friends, and Git), but I think I'll opt for comedy in my own country instead. I'll try and bring some of my 3D friends along too!
This is giving me a little more hope about lasting till Edinburgh without going insane. I'll have comedy to look forward to at the end of April (twice) and once or twice in July (with Just for Laughs festivals in Montreal and Toronto) before going to Edinburgh in August. Seems like I've got myself set up for comedy in the summer. It's the drought from September till March that I'll need to work on next year.

Friday, March 12, 2010

Red Hair

So, as I mentioned previously, I tried, but failed to dye my hair red. I tried again last night, this time with a lot more success. It's definitely red now. It's a little more orange-y than I was hoping, but I still rather like it. So there it is. My first TYSIC goal done.
I'm not sure if I'll keep it for very long, but at least I've done it. I've dyed my reddish tones before, from a purple-y brown to a gingery blonde. I'm not sure why I love being a red head so much, or why I find that it suits me more than my natural colour (a sort of light ash brown) but it does. I think it's my the scottish blood and the few freckles on my nose so kindly donated to me by my Granny.
I figured that this would be a last kind of crazy thing I do with my hair before retreating back to the world of the natural, but I quite like my red hair. Sure it might be high-maintenance and look kinda shitty when I inevitably don't bother to take care of it, but there's something special about being a red-head. Something nice about being different and standing out from the crowd.
I was thinking this as I walked down the street, 5'11" plus 3" heels, shiny faux-leather jacket and flaming red hair... maybe all I want is attention.

Thursday, March 11, 2010

Ten Year Self Improvement Challenge

So, I started this blog as a place to keep track of my participation in Mark Watson's Ten Year Self-Improvement Challenge henceforth known as TYSIC (details here: http://www.markwatsonthecomedian.com/web/2010/02/26/ten-year-self-improvement-challenge/). I will be doing occasional (whenever I'm procrasting) updates on TYSIC and possibly also other blogs, but those'll be even less frequent.

My fear of failure - So this is the big one. Whenever I feel like I might fail at something, I avoid it like the plague. It's partly cos I'm lazy, but mostly cos I'm scared. I went to this university because it was near enough my parent's house to go home on the weekends. I picked 'Life Sciences' as a major because I was good at it, not cos I was passionate about it. I started doing a Master's degree in a lab that I didn't really like because I was too scared to change and too scared to apply for jobs at the end of my 4th year uni. It took me 6 months of hating that degree and my old boss before I quit because I was too scared of moving on. I've been single for 4 years cos I'm too scared of relationships. Casual sex is easy, relationships are hard. I got burned by my last and only long-term relationship and I've stayed away from them since.
My goal of the next 10 years is to face my fear of failure, to apply for jobs that I might not get, to make decisions about what I want to do with my life, to move to the UK (at least for a while) and to have relationships, no matter how much they scare me. I'm sure I'll fail along the way, but I need to learn to deal with that.

My first week: So I've wanted to dye my hair fire-engine red for about 5 years. I've always been scared and made excuses not to. But I figured it'd be a good way to start my TYSIC cos if I ever want to go red, I should do it while I'm young. On Saturday I purchased 'red' dye from the store and dyed it. That <-- was the result. Clearly not red. More pink and some bits still brown. So I failed at my first attempt to face my fear of failure. Not sure what I learned there. Any comments of optimistic lessons would be appreciated.
I went back to the store and bought PERMANENT red dye. My best friend is coming over tonight and we're going to dye it. I will post a picture or two of the result.

When I start making progress on any goal that's more significant, I'll post it here as well. Any comments and feedback are always appreciated. Thanks for reading!
x Sarah